Friday, January 09, 2009

I FELL IN LOVE

When I was younger, I fell in love so much and so easily. I loved boys when I was supposed to, starting in about fifth grade. I loved guys when I was supposed to, starting in high school. I loved more mature guys when I was supposed to, starting in college. I have loved men throughout my life.

But when I was born, I loved one man who has continued to hold my heart and my hand. My dad. And I realized a few years back, that he was the only man who ever showed me what true love was, the only man who never walked away from me, and maybe the reason I never was successful in love was because I was trying to find that guy who was just like Dad. It never happened. I have never loved any man the way I love him, and now he's leaving me.

There's a difference, though, in losing a lover and losing a love. Only death could separate Dad from me and death has come knocking. I don't think we ever thought that would happen, and we're both fighting it pretty heatedly.

And so this blog is in honor of my dad who has loved me unconditionally according to the Webster's definition of that. A beautiful man with a big heart and a soul like gold. I'm gonna miss him but am going to hand him over to the angels so he can find Mom and find peace and watch every game all at the same time.

Peace to you, old man! And I love you unconditionally.

3 comments:

Reach With Your Heart said...

What a beautiful tribute to your dad! I, too had the greatest dad on earth and lost him all too soon! But what I have learned is that although they aren't here physically, they never really leave you - they are with you in everything you do, in your heart, in your dreams and in your memories. Cherish this time! XXOO

Tracy said...

That's sweet. He'll always be there for you. I know it's not the same, but he's not really going anywhere.

Kathy said...

You guys are both right. I really am not panicked about this right now. I know he'll hang around.

Thanks, girls...xxoo Love you so much!